My Photo   This is my ex-pal, Bernard Kerik. He is a recognizable public figure. I am a private person. I never intended these precious memories to be shared. However, I was threatened my name would be "released" to the press with the malicious intent to "destroy my life".Yes, that happened. I don't need fame, a big house or reality show. A productive, balanced, healthy life are my treasures. This docu-blog rips open the shame blanket of secrets, untruths, distractions, diversions & manipulation. Our relationship, in retrospect, is clearer to me now: Bernard Kerik is a taker and I am a giver. He made me a secret in his life "on the side" and I allowed it until now. My true intent is benevolent healing. The shame of lies, deceit and manipulation are not mine. I take full responsibility for my personal failings in this relationship and the serious consequences resulting. I pray my life will be redeemed and enhanced by the lessons born of the pain. Truth overpowers threats. Secrets keep us "sick". Everything I share is truth based upon personal knowledge, experience, and most often, documents. This is my truth. I hope it sets us all free .....

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Felon Bernard Kerik may have violated protective order!

Felon Bernard Kerik and his attorney, Timothy Parlatore may have just commited the legal equivalent of shooting themselves in the foot! In the "reheated dog food " madness to defame and sue Joe Tacopina, Bernard Kerik now faces the consequences of USA allegations he violated the protective order of sealed government court documents! 

Unemployed whining felon, Bernard Kerik, although seen sauntering around the halls of the US Senate, "volunteering" Altoids for felons or some crazy crap, is an 8-time convicted felon on probation with this being the second issue flirting with violation of a protective order! (Bernie was sent to Westchester jail during the original trial proceedings in 2009 for an email Judge Robinson deemed violated court's order)

Today, in the continuing case of USA v Bernard Kerik, Judge Preska ordered the following: 

This "07/23/2014 # 151 ORDER denying  144  LETTER MOTION to Withdraw Document  140  MOTION for Reconsideration re  138  Order on Motion to Unseal Case as to Bernard B. Kerik (1). Kerik's motion [dkt. no. 144] to vacate partially the Protective Order is DENIED. This Order does not resolve the Government's allegation that Kerik has violated the Protective Order. The parties shall confer and report to the Court by August 1, 2014 as to how they propose to proceed, if at all, with respect to this issue. (Signed by Judge Loretta A. Preska on 7/23/2014) (ft) (Entered: 07/23/2014)"

This does not look good for Bernard Kerik. It's a shame because he just got his foolish cameo on TMZ. That's a sure sign of success in our world, isn't it? What's next, "Dancing With the Stars", "Real Felons of Franklin Lakes", "Apprentice" or another extended stay courtesy of the Federal BOP Cumberland Prison Camp? I think you all know my preference! Bern, better load up on Al Manzo's shrimp scampi just in case. Tell Hala not to discard those directions to Cumberland BOP FPC! We always agreed it was a lovely ride that leads to you, though! Count me out, this time, Pal! It's a sure bet I won't be invited to this "Welcome Home" party once again. But, at least, we are all truth-tellers now. Well, I'll speak for myself. 

Bernard Kerik Exclusive Writing Preface for his new book?

As I have documented here, I assisted my ex-pal and Federal Inmate Bernard Kerik in many helpful ways during his incarceration to total of $93,000 in monetary commissary support, services and work product. We are now estranged, and as condition of his probation, may not have contact with me or my family at my residence, work or anywhere for that matter.He has made no formal efforts to make restitution or even amends to me. He has only subjected me and those I love, as well as perfect strangers, to harassment and humiliation as intimidation for me to simply hand over my work for his notoriety and future profit. That's not good with this women. Never has. Never will be. I devoted three years of my life giving him love, support and a new "conversation" for his alleged new beginning. What I received was manipulation, lies, a broken heart. I'm ok with letting all that go as it was never genuine and no longer feels good. However, my work product, etc is mine.

Since Bernard Kerik seems to think it's just fine to use my work product, concepts, talking points, writing, editing, etc without my permission, credit or compensation, I've decided to "give them away" here. I will be "dropping" my work I've done with Bernard Kerik during the totality of his three years incarceration. He and his publishers, agents and everyone else such as Threshold Editions, Simon and Schuster, Penn State Forum, Amazon, iTunes, etc are now officially on notice with this blog entry regarding my retention of rights to my work!

I have for you today, "The Preface". This work was to be the Preface for the republishing of Bernard Kerik's reprinting of his first memoir, "The Lost Son". Bernie emailed me he was granted the rights in his last year of incarceration. I have no further knowledge on the progress of this republishing. However, this work is significant to any watchers of the defamation case currently battled between Bernard Kerik v. Joe Tacopina as well as the unsealing of private files in USA v. Bernard Kerik. In "This Preface" Bernard Kerik details the events leading to his convictions. As always, we wonder if Bernie was lying then or lying now....

This work is an edit just as I last worked on it in April, 2013 before Bernie was released to home confinement. He apparently lied to Hala about the full nature of our relationship. Bernie asked me to mail Hala the documents to prove it was all about the work. You can fill in the blanks what happened next. Obviously the work was never completed. The "Dying With Your Eyes Open" has been previously shared on this blog so it has been omitted on this post. Well, ok....That's all that's left now, so here goes...

Bernard Kerik The Kerik Group exposed as a shell company?

During his whining media tour, felon Bernard Kerik has been telling everyone in media and the man in the moon he is unemployed but at the same time expresses his contact is "his company" known as The Kerik Group This brought me back to a conversation Bernie and I had about the name of his company should he, one day, have an opportunity to own a company again. As a convicted felon, Bernard Kerik may not sign certain contracts, work for the government, be granted certain licenses, apply for certain business start up loans, etc. Bernard Kerik, as a felon on probation, is also not allowed to own a gun, license a weapon or even hold a deadly weapon. These restrictions would seemingly prevent him from working as the CEO of a "risk management company". However, the State of New Jersey, Department of the Treasury Filing Certificate shows his "business purpose" as "risk management company".

What do they call a company that reportedly has no assets, no clients, no contracts and where the CEO is restricted by Federal convictions to transact much of the daily business? That would be the definition of a "shell company". This an acceptable status for most "start-ups" but "The Kerik Group" is no start-up. In fact, an older version of  The Kerik Group existed back during the days of Bernie's legal woes in 2008 for the purpose of "consulting services (all types)". This company was disbanded by a State of New Jersey Certificate of Cancellation dated 02/01/10 with reasons "business discontinued due to factors beyond its control" aka Bernie was being sentenced to go to prison.

Bernie consulted me for my suggestions on a new name for his company. I explained to him using "The Kerik Group" would remind us all of darker days as the former company was subject of Bernie's federal investigation as...wait for it..wait for it...a "shell company". The Government suspected Bernie funneled money through his company. Those charges never manifested in Bernie's conviction, however the is well documented in USA V. Bernard Kerik and, as such, the stigma exists.

So what does Bernie call his new business filed in the State of New Jersey on 10/10/13? You got it! "The Kerik Group". The purpose of this business on the certificate is "Risk management Consulting". I'm not sure how he got away with filing for a business he can't possibly own, run or transact business but that's Bernie and that's Jersey, folks!

It appears Bernie utilizes his new "The Kerik Group", employee of one, to save face, communicate with all those "associates" and funnel his speaking, publishing and writing fees that are apparently not recognized by Bernie as "work" or "income". Since Bernie is still on probation paying to reduce his criminal fine, income is an important factor. The nominal amount Bernie pays to the government every month is based upon his ability to pay. It would behoove the government to take a second look at "The Kerik Group" financial statements. Right now Bernue claims he's unemployed, hence the $250.00/month payment. However he has time to dress up, travel to Washington DC on a regular basis, chat Altoids and Mel Gibson with TMZ and do lunch at fancy places all in the name if "volunteering" in his heroic role of prison "reformer" chatterbox.

This summation is based upon public information such as the below-captioned documents which are the true and exact scans of the Status of New Jersey Department of Treasury business certificate filings for the old and new "The Kerik Group LLC".

Since Bernie Kerik, still on probation,  pays only $250.00 per month toward his low six figure original criminal fine, perhaps Federal Probation and the public would like to justify that nominal amount per month. Bernie claims he doesn't have a "job" or any employment at all and lives on his NYC pension. I suppose this growing "shell company" will one day turn a profit and felon Bernard Kerik will actually pay his full debt to society. We can expect this new "The Kerik Group" is a legitimate venture. However, with the old name and the "old Bernie" returning from prison in self-proclaimed financial distress, it could return to be the same old......
State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

State of New Jersey Filing Certificate The Kerik Group

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Bernard Kerik cashes in off the backs of inmates he left behind

Bernard Kerik cashes in off the backs of inmates he left behind 

I'm not the only victim of Bernard Kerik and I won't be the last.

Self-Proclaimed Reformer, Liar Felon Bernard Kerik is cashing in off the backs of the inmates he left behind.  

During his three years incarceration. Bernard Kerik, with malicious intention, did deliberately manipulate me out of $93000 commissary monetary support, goods and services. In addition, felon Bernard Kerik had been making money off my work product, concepts, talking points, editing and writing without amends, permission, credit or compensation. The same could be said for every inmate he promised he'd help. Bernard Kerik exploits their stories as examples with no compensation or credit.

Here are some examples of those who are making money off the backs of me and those felons by hiring liar felon Bernard Kerik with full knowledge of his criminal background and intentions.

Senator Rand Paul apparently hired felon Bernard Kerik, through

Rand Paul hires felon Bernard Kerik

Penn State Forum Speaking

Penn State hires Bernard Kerik to speak

Threshold Editions, an imprint of Simon & Schuster is publishing Bernard Kerik's fantasy from "jailer to jailed". It may or may not include my work. My legal counsel has been advised. 

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Bernard Kerik From jailer to Jailed Threshold Editions Simon&Schuster

I can understand Threshold Editions, Simon & Schuster hawking Kerik's book. They would sell any words to make a buck. People buy that crap all the time. 

I totally understand Penn State. They reportedly protected Pedophile Jerry Sandusky for years. Penn State apparently can't turn away a true criminal.

I am most surprised by Senator Rand Paul. Senators are models of trust and righteousness. Very disappointing. Supporting Bernard Kerik is supporting a very bad thing. Time will tell. My God is a very good bookkeeper. Thy will be done.

A person close to Bernard Kerik once cautioned me he has a pattern of using people for whatever he wants from them, lying, cheating, manipulating then discarding them from his life. Ask his ex-wives, Joe Tacopina or Rudy Giuliani about that. I didn't listen. Just as Jerry Sandusky's victims, it felt good so I didn't realize he was hurting me with evil manipulation. I'm paying the price and have taken responsibility for my bad choices. 

Now the world knows the truth. No excuses.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Why Bernard Kerik is DEAD WRONG about Prison Reform; RIP Jersey City Officer Melvin Santiago

In response to the recent killing of Jersey City Officer Melvin Santiago, Bernard Kerik took to his "featured blog" on Huffington Post Crime (Safer Streets and Communities Start at Home: Huffington Post Crime Blog) to go on a wild and DIVERGENT tangent with utter gibberish about parenting and teaching civics. Is Bernard Kerik trying to say all this cop killer needed was better parenting and a civics class? This, from the former hero cop, NYC Corrections Commissioner and NYPD Commissioner? (I am not naming the cop killer because this blogger is not going to contribute to making thug killer assassins "famous") 

This killing is not about parenting or civics, Bernard Kerik! This killing was not just about a thug coward wanting to be famous. This slaying of Officer Santiago is about a society moving the lines of right and wrong for the sake of Presidential Pardons, votes, money and power. We need to turn our sensibilities back to right and wrong. It's about getting tough on criminals and restoring shame and punishment for wrong-doing!

I owe it to the memory of Jersey City fallen rookie Officer Melvin Santiago,who gave his life to uphold the law, to "call a thang a thang".

For the last year Bernard Kerik has been whining in support of leniency in sentencing and the granting of government entitlements to "non-violent drug offenders". According to all reports, on paper, Officer Santiago's assassin would be classified a "non-violent drug offender" having been released from jail the past January on the second of two arrests for selling drugs on school property. Make no mistake; Every "non-violent drug offender" is one gang, one desperate fix, one bad trip or one short sale away from violence! The killer had recently been a suspect in a homicide, obviously following this dangerous pattern. This is why our representatives should think carefully before supporting and enacting such legislation. (

Every honest officer will admit an ambush - head shot is their biggest fear. There is no amount of training, tactics, intelligence or awareness that can protect any officer from an ambush head shot. It is deadly. There is a big problem in Jersey City when thugs and gangs feel emboldened to assassinate and ambush police officers. It's time to get tougher, not more lenient!

As the world mourns Jersey City NJ Rookie Officer Melvin Santiago, it's time to respect his memory and legacy with all due tributes with sympathy for his family and survivors.

Most rookie officers haven't enough time on the job to prove a lasting legacy. This is not the case for fallen rookie Officer Melvin Santiago. In his name, let's restore the shame, punishment and deterrence to all crime! It shouldn't be about "only had five grams of drugs" but NO drugs! It should not be about wiping the wrongdoing from a record but living with it to tell others how awful life is because you broke the law! It's about right and wrong! There's no middle ground in right or wrong! This killer was already a two-time offender! Who among reasonable people would think that was one time too many if it could have spared Officer Santiago's life?

Officer Santiago, your legacy should be young men and women serving their community as you did! Your legacy will be young men and women reading about you knowing good can prevail. Your legacy should be a young man from Jersey City who chose good over evil and right from wrong. You service will neither be in vain nor forgotten! Let's not let politics, political correctness or any other selfish agenda to roadblock Officer Melvin Santiago's true legacy!

What is wrong with America? This is not a black or white issue. It is about law and building a peaceful, productive society. Why are we going to tolerate sacrificing good and decent people like Officer Santiago to Hug-A-Thug? Criminals should admit their guilt, want to stay out of jail, beg forgiveness, be very busy making restitution and creating a productive life. If they can't or won't , let's build as many jails as necessary until the message is sent! Bernard Kerik, I call B.S. on your prison reform in memory and in the legacy of a rookie Officer Melvin Santiago.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Bernard Kerik "The Horror of the Box" Bernie Kerik's exclusive personal MCC SHU Solitary Confinement Experience

In late September, 2012 through November, 2012, Bernie was sent from Federal Prison in Cumberland, MD to the Federal Metropolitan Correctional Center (MCC) SHU (special housing unit or solitary confinement) in federal custody to testify in the DiTommaso trial. It was, by far, the most difficult time of Bernie's incarceration for me in that we had no contact for over one month. It would be the longest period of his incarceration we were not in some form of daily communication by letter, email, visits or phone. Selfishly, I missed Bernie with every breath I took during this lonely time. The limited precious communication we enjoyed from prison went from a sweet daily ritual to a dead cold silence during this time of separation. Daily, I scoured the New York media for any news of his condition or movement. I wasn't sure what was worse: not knowing anything or the intentional humiliating "Mighty has Fallen" perp walk the media splashed on the front cover of each New York rag....Back then, I cared...a lot...

Although the Bureau of Prisons advised Bernie they were assigning him to solitary confinement for his safety and security, I knew it was also Bernie's most difficult time, as you will read. From my short law enforcement experience, I knew how difficult solitary confinement was on prisoners. For Bernie, with the added humiliation and embarrassment of the press, it would even that much more horrible an experience for him. However, I knew he was a survivor from birth and remained a warrior throughout all the difficult times of his life. It was the emotional component, the degradation of his soul and spirit, for which I had the most concern. To add to my worry, New York also suffered Hurricane Sandy during this time. The news of the conditions of the NYC jails and prisons during the storm was scarce. Of all the times for Bernie to be away, this had to be the worst time. I was constantly praying and concerned for his safety and well being. I worried constantly to think he may be unprotected, abused, hurt, sick, cold, lonely, lacking water, light or food, especially during the storm....

The "Cannibal Cop" and others were housed with Bernie on this wing of the prison as you will read in the following article. It is surreal and heartbreaking for me to reflect upon this time. I could never wrap my brain around the total irony of a federal prisoner, also the former NYC Corrections Commissioner and NYPD Police Commissioner, was now languishing in prison in the city he commanded just a decade ago during 9/11. I thought there were no words, night after night, in prayer as I waited for Bernie to return to Cumberland Federal Prison Camp. But there were words and feelings that must be written before they were nullified by time and events. For me, it was the declaration of Bernie's survival, his strength and the recognition of our bonding as only a separation will declare. I'll never forget that phone call he made to me from the car upon his release on the journey from New York back to Cumberland MD. (It was from a private cell of one of the guards who knew Bernie and allowed him a few calls from the car against the normal protocol. There was no typical recording warning the call was from a federal prison. I didn't believe it was Bernie on the phone. That incident became a running joke between us)...Looking back, it is a bittersweet memory for me now in light of our's difficult to label our relationship. As in 24: Live Another Day, our relationship was most like "Jack Bauer", anti-hero warrior and "Chloe", GeekGirl facilitator/partner back then....

Bernie clearly had some difficulty discussing the SHU experience. I couldn't hurt Bernie by forcing him to recount his experience. I patiently waited until he cautiously admitted he was ready to talk but needed help. I was there. Several months later, on March, 2013, he finally felt safe enough to open up about the experience. To make it easier on both of us, I wrote him some questions in an easy email format he could answer at this own pace. It was touching but painful experience for both of us. I sobbed during the entire process. However, as all painful experiences, it did bring us as close as we had ever been during his incarceration. Today I think of that bond and wonder how he could so quickly dismiss it today. But, Hell, Bernie and Rudy survived 9/11 together but not even this near-death experience repaired their conscious upcoupling! Here are his responses to my questions on which I began to write for him:

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From this foundation and several tearful conversations through numerous emails, visits and edits, the unfinished work known as "The Horror of the Box" was created. This work was left incomplete with the original edits untouched. Bernie and I were going to finish it after his release on 05/28/13. That never happened. That's too bad. I believe we this could have been our signature chapter of his new book. It was the most honest and open I've ever witnessed Bernie to be.....This piece reflects the best of Bernie and me. It is rigorously honest, torrid, deep, raw and stark in its irony and lessons. 

Our lives back then were guided by fate and destiny. We just "let it be what it be." About everything and anything, we always remarked to each other, "Who would have thunk it?"...I leave it unfinished, as are we....

Against my clear objection, Bernie has felt it necessary to use my concepts, writing, editing and talking points without amends, permission, credit or compensation in media and, recently, in his Huffington Post blog. I give this work as a gift in memory of our time together....I was always there for him. There were great times. There were awful times. But it was our time....It will live on in our words.... The words remember when...

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Monday, July 14, 2014

50 Shades of Bernie Kerik LollyPop Prison Reform - Bernard Kerik handwritten prison email

Because Bernard Kerik a.k.a. "Lollypop" apparently thinks it's just fine to use my concepts, writing, editing and talking points without amends, permission, credit or compensation (@HuffingtonPost, Huffington Post, Huffington Post Crime Blog), I thought it I'd reciprocate the joy by sharing his exclusive one-of-a-kind works from prison. I assure you this custom, personalized, hand-written prison letter from Bernie Kerik to me was the only thing he could write without my assistance. Just in case Bernie has left you with the incomplete impression and fantasy all he thought about in prison was his devoted, suffering family, Al Manzo's scampi and Prison Reform concepts, you'd be wrong. I have about 134 more letters but I'll save that for my book or court...whichever Bernard Kerik thinks should come next... Oh my, just when you thought Bernard Kerik had changed, there he goes again! You and me, both! I'll always be here to set the record straight. In case this prison reform thing doesn't work out, Bernie Kerik may have a new career as a romance writer, don't you think? (Spoiler Alert: The best part is Page 3 where Bernie is assuring me he's lost weight but the only part that hasn't shrunk was....Shhh, Don't tell Hala!)
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Sunday, July 13, 2014

Exclusive Prison email may prove Bernard Kerik original target was Judge Stephen C. Robinson

As shown in this exclusive Prison Corrlinks email, Bernard Kerik's original target of professional misconduct could have been presiding Judge in the "USA v Bernard Kerik" case, Federal Judge Stephen C. Robinson.

On August 25, 2011, at 11:36AM, Inmate Bernard Kerik sent this personal email to me requesting "legal support" in contemplation of a professional complaint against "a federal judge in the Southern District of New York". Bernie goes further to ask for additional research for a "video on line of my judge giving a speech at a law school, where he says something to the effect that the hardest thing about his job is sentencing a black man, because he knows how he was raised, and has to take that into consideration in sentencing. Many people have written, saying that the judge's remarks are extremely racist, prejudicial and clearly demonstrate a bias, as we witnessed during my pretrial hearings, and sentencing."

Media coverage of Bernie's current target, former attorney/business partner/friend, Joe Tacopina  has Bernie accusing Joe of adultery, drug abuse and ineffectiveness of counsel. There has been ZERO support with any hard credible evidence in these ludicrous accusations. The New York Daily News and some local New Jersey publications are the only rags who have carried Bernie's defamatory accusations.

When I received this email, I was concerned for Bernie's emotional state. At the time, our visits were clouded by his anger and frustration boiling over from this determination to gain legal revenge. He became obsessed with it asking me for more and more research in support of it. I reluctantly complied hoping he would prove to himself how pointless the effort would become. Bernie had friends, who had nothing to lose, who foolishly encouraged this legal folly. I was deeply concerned about Bernie's anger as he unearthed, relived and dissected his case. I was most concerned he would risk his liberty on probation attempting to pursue these actions.

I remain sad Bernie can't come to terms with his guilt, accept it and move on with his life on the most genuine of terms. I suppose the media spotlight and attention, for Bernie, is truly more important to him than living a quiet, productive private life.

I may only speculate why Bernie did not choose, at this point, to go after Judge Robinson. It may be because this beef with Joe is more "personal" than legally legitimate. It may be because Joe Tacopina seemingly has more money than Judge Robinson. Bernie Kerik is desperate for money now. Instead of getting employment, it would appear Bernie is trying to litigate from very deep pockets his return to a lavish lifestyle of yesterday. It may also be Bernie was afraid of damaging his base "prison reform" demographic, which presently would be the Liberal Black Democrat Caucus.

Whatever the reason, this exclusive prison email clearly shows Joe Tacopina was not Bernie's only target.

Exclusive Prison Corrlinks email Bernard Kerik about Judge Stephen C. Robinson
For those interested, I did research but could not find the particular video Bernie was seeking of a law school speech made by Judge Robinson. However, I located a video of Judge Robinson making a speech to the New York City Bar on the issue of  "Diversity" at the "Sixth Annual Diversity Champion Awards held on May 25, 2011. Judge Robinson's speech begins at min 5:30 into the below-captioned video. Judge Robinson describing a special NYC Bar Committee exploring diversity in the legal profession does not seem a damaging, racist, prejudicial or a biased effort but you may "judge" for yourself.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Bernard Kerik: Exclusive Prison emails may show Bernie Kerik planned revenge on Joe Tacopina

Bernard Kerik Prison email to me re: Joe Tacopina

Bernie Kerik has had it in for Joe Tacopina for a long time. I know because I’m the one who, upon Bernie's request from prison, performed the legal research for Bernie and Ray Mansolillo (the "Better Call Saul" in the real world) back in 2011. From Federal prison in Cumberland, MD, Bernard Kerik emailed me requesting specific media reporting regarding Joe Tacopina’s testimony to the Feds.

Bernard Kerik Prison email to me re: Joe Tacopina

I got the biggest laugh when Bernie called out Joe Tacopina on alleged adultery! Pot. Kettle. Kerik! Are you kidding me? In regards to adultery, Bernie is the best that did it and got away with it! 

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Ironically, this story sold a lot of newspapers for the New York Daily News! Back in the day, the New York Daily News was no friend to Bernie. Today, they are his former co-defendants in the civil defamation complaint and act as Bernie's defacto ad-hoc public relations firm! I must note Bernie's propaganda has moved, recently, from the "sports" sections to the "crime" section. Huh?

According to the story, and confirmed through my own personal knowledge, Bernie was reportedly Simultaneously and regularly ejaculating into his former NYC Dept of Corrections subordinate C.O. Jeanette Pinero, as well as his publisher, at the time, Judith Regan, in an apartment overlooking the 9/11 workers sifting pieces of flesh and bones in the still smoldering heaps of toxic debris and death. It was pretty common knowledge Bernie was doing Jeanette, before and during all the early years of his marriage to Hala and especially through both of Hala's pregnancies. Nice guy, right? Yup, that happened **cough** allegedly...

So why is Bernie risking it all coming undone with such flamboyant legal folley? Bernie Kerik craves hot monkey sex, money and media attention. Today, with Hala's short leash, he's probably only getting one out of the three. (If you have to ask, you don't deserve to know). There's no money (legit, on the books, that is). There’s no publishing deal. There's no TV movie. There’s no legitimate company to run ( There’s no legitimate source of income besides his NYC pension.

Bernard Kerik has a very high lifestyle to support. Bernard Kerik desperately needs money. This is exactly the financial stress he was experiencing in 1997 when his crimes first occurred. Joe Tacopina has deep pockets and remains a bonefide media magnet. The New York Daily News is obviously carrying Bernie's muddy water in their mutual efforts to smear Joe Tacopina. That's all Bernie will ultimately gain in the short term.

Lastly, Bernie may be hoping to sway public opinion into thinking he's an innocent "victim of the system" and/or a target of the government thus setting him on the liberal path to a possible Presidential Pardon! 

Bernie currently pays only $250.00 per month restitution to the US Government, on probation for his crimes. He had to convince someone at probation he was in a difficult financial situation - at least on paper. I personally think Bernie doesn't work so as to tee up a possible disability claim for a big 9/11 payout through Instead of getting a job, Bernie spends his time partying with his "famous" friends. 

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Hey, Beau, no fries? I guess Arby's was closed? Hey, Rep. King, can you hook up your BFF, Bernie Kerik, with a j-o-b? If  Pete King, Roseanna Scotto, Geraldo Rivera, Beau Dietl, NewsMax, Modell, Judge Andrew Napolitano and Jeanine Pirro can't hook up Bernie Kerik with a job, someone is just not trying hard enough!

I suppose Bernie's job, these days, is to smile for the camera, do swanky NYC lunch, tweet, check out those very young sympathetic, liberal, big-boobed, chicklet-teeth sweeties at the gym or attending his volunteer "speaking" engagements, keep his secrets from Hala and the Feds, attend court appearances and keep to the "poor me" script. Heck of a job, Bernie!

Judd Burstein and Joe Tacopina have been unusually quiet. That should be making Bernard Kerik very nervous. Justice would result in Bernie owing Joe Tacopina millions in judgments with Bernie returning to prison for all the lies to which he's sworn over the last six months. That won't exactly square things with me but it would be a great start. Thy will be done...

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Bernard Kerik Exclusive "Dying With Your Eyes Open" written with Bernard Kerik

Felon Bernard Kerik and I wrote "Dying With your Eyes Open" while he was in prison. This is the original document on which his speaking is based. Unfortunately Bernie has been using my work, talking points and concepts for his own profit and/or media opportunities without proper credit as co-writer and editor. Bernard Kerik is using my work product in the media. Bernie Kerik also used my talking points and work product today in a speaking appearance to the @NACDL (Yes, he did that in front of a room full of lawyers! Ironic, isn't it?)

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It's not the first thing this felon has taken from me. It's our work. It's my, as proof, I offer the original completed document as it exists. The final edited copy was completed April, 2013 while Bernie was incarcerated at Cumberland Federal Prison FPC. This is the original version in its original format. I have all our writing....Don't allow anyone to assert otherwise...

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Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Bernard Kerik: An Open Letter to Bernie Kerik and Tapping Out...

An open letter to Bernard Kerik  "Tapping Out"

Dear Bernie,

Today, May 28, 2014, will mark one year since you've been released from prison. It's an understatement to pronounce our lives and our relationship are not what we planned or hoped. It was on this day, one year ago, I realized our intimate relationship was all a lie to manipulate me out $93,000 support pretending to Hala and your family you were sacrificing and "going without" in prison for their well being. 

Bernie, sadly for you and Al Manzo, there appears to be no republishing of "The Lost Son", no new book, no TV movie and no "comeback bigger than Martha Stewart". At least you got the scampi! You are a joke, mean-spirited while stubbornly holding tight to that "self-minded arrogance". With every media and public appearance you prove and expose how very inadequate you are. You didn't even earn an invitation to the 9/11 Memorial Museum. What has become of your life and that precious second opportunity? Today you are on probation, back in court even at the risk going back to prison. Same, same, same. As from the script from the television show, '24:Live Another Day', "You were in exile for four years. What have you learned?"

Bernie, you should be the last person in the world calling out your once great friend, Joe Tacopina, for alleged infidelity. Aren't you the one Hala looks at every day knowing you've lied and been unfaithful to her multiple times?! You and I know that, don't we, Bernie?! Shame on you but I know narcissists and psychopaths feel no shame. In addition to being a liar, pretender and manipulator, you are such a hypocrite! 

Before you left prison, we took much time and care, crafting talking points and a road map strategy to rehabilitation and success. Bernie, you then stole my concepts, my work, denied my existence and lied about our relationship to the world. Once out, you chose to return to the same swindling, bad company. Any addict or criminal will tell you going back will bring you back. Look at the mess you've made of your clean start. It could have been the greatest comeback story of all time...So sad....

You claim you can't find a job. Most of us regular working folk wonder, with no income for years and your own "real housewife of New Jersey" refusing to get a job, what's your secret not only to survival but to support a family in a $2 million estate? But that's your job to keep that secret and probation's job to discover, right? The Islands are pretty stormy this time of year. Maybe the answer was on that laptop and hard drive in those precious boxes John Picciano held for you while in prison? Couldn't trust that to Hala? Yeah, that would have been tough if they found all that in your house, huh? Decent and honest people see right through your masquerading bullshit, Bernie. They will never hire you. They know you're not ready to move forward to living a legitimate life. Real life is hard work. You're clearly not hungry enough and that is a fact that should not get by probation! You're lazy, dumb and been "made" all these years. Can you find a job on your own merits? The last year is your proof. We both know it's not that you can't get a job. It either doesn't pay more than a disability claim ( ??) or doing lunch and having a spotlight is more fun and gets more chicks than a real job! Every real "crisis management CEO" waits for the day they are routinely profiled in the New York Daily News Sports section and the old, irrelevant, decrepit Page Six gossip column by ( Hala's fairy GodMother), Cindy Adams. Didn't she once say you had "no second act"? She was right now that I think of it! 

And isn't used to funnel your "speaking fees"? What do they call a company that has no clients, no assets and where the CEO can't legally negotiate all company business? It's called a shell company! Perhaps some old tricks at play here? Not good!

Bernie, you and I began with simple gesture of unsolicited kindness. Instead of embracing and protecting us, you lied, denied and, as a jail pimp does, used my kindness for the tangible assets and left the love behind. This is a regrettable cyclic devastating pattern in your life. Now, we are sad, ugly and contorted. Your life has returned to the pre-prison ugly legal drama mess. You are confined to your own prison of lies and litigation this time. 

Bernie, you will be disappointed to learn you did not accomplish your threat to "destroy my life". I have defied the evil, harassment, the vile attempt to get me fired and threats by you and your thug associates (Bill White, Ray Mansolillo, John Picciano, Mrs.Cumberland Inmate Joseph Burchfield) over this past year. Probation has been alerted but, for some reason, refuses to violate you. Remember I'm a great friend but I'm a better enemy. I've earned my way out of this unbalanced dysfunctional relationship. Bernard Kerik, yet again, you've lost, in me, a loyal, genuine soul, perpetually in your corner against all odds, who loved you with the purest intentions. I don't like the ugly head space I must occupy to fight your evil. You are on two more years probation. Bernie, trust and believe, any further harassment by you and/or in your name by your associates, friends, "play attorney" and family will be promptly reported and prosecuted to the full extent of the law. It would behoove you to cut all that shit out because your risk a violation of probation. I will not hesitate to send you back to prison. 

I witnessed prison provide the truest venue for your kinder authentic self to emerge but you are back to your old felon way of life. I mourn and regret the world will never see the humble, reformed Bernie I saw during you're last six months in prison.The truth is the BOP had you humbled but Probation clearly dropped the ball upon your release. 

My goal in this blog was to let the world know you haven't changed. Mission Accomplished.

My book is completed. The letters, phone call list, emails and texts are preserved and archived. I'm ready to go to battle if necessary but do you even have time for more court dates? I continue to believe in kindness and goodness. I realize now those are two essential qualities of my authentic life I will never find with you.

Bernie, in the last year, I, and those I love, have been devastated emotionally and financially, by your harassment. I'm sure there will be future battles because turning your loyal and best friends into enemies is just what you do. Ask Rudy Giuliani or Joe Tacopina about that. (My best wishes to Joe Tacopina and Judd Burstein on their case against you. It's a no-brainer and a long-time coming) Bad people who do bad things belong in prison. Bernard Kerik, you belong in prison.I hope Judd Burstein and Joe Tacopina send you back. Remember you "drew first blood" on this case!

Bernie, you pride yourself on your black belt. During mutual combat, especially in jiu jitsu and martial arts, "tapping out" keeps participants safe. Combatants choose to "tap out" to keep competition safe. It is NOT as result of fear or intimidation but rather the wise, humane and safe choice.

Bernie, one of us has to be dignified and humane. I've been told you miss me....a lot.. and wish I could contact you to "work it out between just us"... In the words of Taylor Swift, "We are never ever ever getting back together"...Too bad, so sad. So here's to the the hundreds of phone calls, emails, letters, hours driving to prison, hundreds of dollars in commissary, writing, editing, social media, consulting, visits, E-3 coffee and the rest of the intimate details just shared between us..Gone, not forgotten and never to be forgiven.... 

"... Tap early, and tap often.  Don’t wait until your arm is about to break, or until you are about to lose consciousness to tap... There is no point in hanging on until the inevitable, bitter end.. " from

Bernie, I hope your daughters are never treated by a man the way you've treated me. I'm "tapping out".... - me

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Felon Bernard Kerik blames Google for Inmate Re-entry unemployment?

Unemployed Super-Volunteer Felon Bernard Kerik continued his "Flapping Gums, Poor Bernie, Draconian, It's-Everyone's-fault-but-mine-that-I'm-a-felon, Whining Tour" by "appearing" on a panel "Restoring the Second-Chance Economy" sponsored by the "New America Foundation" on Friday, 05/16/14. 

I have blogged before regarding the UNCHALLENGED crazy crap Bernie Kerik spews during these do-nothing, say anything panel discussions. 

A tweet from @tsbugg from the #10bigideas event memorialized Bernard Kerik reportedly proclaiming, "Even a Presidential Pardon won't expunge what can be found on Google, which can impair job market re-entry." 
Hey Kerik, I guess no one would know about those pesky 8 felonies and years of lies and cheating on one's country and wife if not for that dastardly Google search?! Yup, that happened!
This unchallenged idiotic spontaneous utterance turned from just dumb to awkward after realizing that earlier this very day at this same conference, Eric Schmidt, Google chair, was honored guest introducing Key Note speaker Hillary Clinton!!!

I just can't make this shit up, people! 

Friday, May 16, 2014

Bernard Kerik to Judge: Pretty Please? ...Awww, Come on, just a Peek!

I read it in the New York Daily News sports section and from a boastful tweet by former co-defendant "reporter", Bernie's legal team was going to subpoena the government for the USA v Bernard Kerik sealed documents! 
In the New York Daily News article dated 05/13/14, "Parlatore said he will send a subpoena for the documents to the U.S. Attorney’s office in White Plains, which prosecuted Kerik, within two weeks." 

Well, after all that puffery and "quienes más macho" crap, it appears a softer legal strategy prevailed.

While unemployed felon Bernie was partying, Ummm, dining, Ummm, working, Ummm volunteering on another lame useless Washington D.C. "think tank panel" blaming Google and draconian laws for his felonies and lies, his lawyer, Ray Mansolillo, filed a very docile "Motion for Reconsideration". As an additional alternative, the motion suggests Kerik and legal team be able to "view the file in camera" with records in custody of Judge Swain. 

I predict it won't take long for the US Attorney to put an end to all this "reheated dog food" nonsense. Stay tuned....

Bernard Kerik's losing legal battle may prove only Self-Defamation

I spent three years of my life, during Bernie's incarceration, researching "USA v Bernard Kerik" and all related cases including the DiTomasso trials and Caruso civil case. Bernie declared to me I knew his case better than some of his attorneys. 

I've just reviewed Judd Burstein's latest filing of 05/15/14 "Declaration in support re: 29 motion for Sanctions". 

I was shocked and concerned at the reading of this filing. The exhibits attached are thorough, stark and very revealing. I can't believe whatever Bernie hopes to gain in bringing this action would be worth the very negative re-exposure of all this old dirty laundry! 

These documents prove Bernie Kerik is a liar. This is not exactly breaking news, especially to yours truly. However, these documents prove Bernie may have lied to his own attorney! That can never be a good thing.

Has Bernie come undone? Inmate and felon Bernard Kerik had the opportunity to be released back into the world with a fair opportunity to "know better and do better", as Oprah would say. Bernie had a chance to live a peaceful, productive life. Instead he's done something very foolish on taking this legal action, doomed to fail, once again, dragging himself and his family through the muck of his seedy past! 

Q: Why? 

A: Greed, hubris, self-minded arrogance, lack of humility and right-fighting desperation. Bernie just can't quit himself!

It appears, Mr. Tacopina was absolutely defamed. However, Bernie Kerik may realize a more harmful result in effect: that of self-defamation.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Felon Bernard Kerik, his front steps and his new CRIMINAL attorney

While incarcerated, during our numerous visits in Cumberland, Bernie often complained about the great financial burden resulting in defending himself in Federal court. Bernie explained he was so broke his $2million Franklin Lakes, NJ estate had multiple liens from several of his defense lawyers. The running joke was the only part of the house he still owned was the front steps! 

Well the jet-setting volunteer justice reformer, flag-waiving, unemployed, possibly disabled (, 8-time-convicted felon has "retained" notable "Madison Avenue" CRIMINAL defense attorney Timothy C. Parlatore for all three of his "civil" actions pending in the US NY Southern District. Mr. Parlatore is associated with notable attorneys Ronald Fischetti, Bruce Cutler (attorney to Mobster John Gotti) and an old pal of Rikki Klieman (aka Mrs. Commissioner Bill Bratton), Eddie Hayes. One must surmise Mr. Parlatore may have just signed up to own the Kerik estate front steps! 

Parlatore's latest popular case, ironically enough, was as criminal attorney defending one of the knucklehead base jumpers off the new World Trade Center building. 

I know Bernie Kerik and a bit of what is in that file. Bernard Kerik should be very careful for what he wishes. He may just get it. 

Bernie's alleged prison pimp manipulation of $93,000 and his vow and direct threat to me to "destroy my life", and resulting actions, have made this past year a very challenging and stressful one, both emotionally and financially. Bernie's hiring of a CRIMINAL defense attorney for three "civil" cases gives credence to the possibility of exposure and investigation possibly resulting in criminal charges and/or discovery of possible probation violations. I have always relied on God being a great "bookkeeper". From where I stand, it couldn't happen to a more deserving felon!
Bernard Kerik Attorney Timothy Parlatore
Bernard Kerik Attorney Appearance
Bernard Kerik Attorney Appearance
Bernard Kerik Attorney Appearance

Monday, May 12, 2014

USA v Bernard Kerik: Judge orders Bernie Kerik return FederalGovernment's Documents!

Bernie Kerik: A loser must lose...

You probably won't read this in the sports section of the New York Daily News so I thought I'd fill you in. Bernard Kerik's motion to unseal the USA v Bernard Kerik  file was not only flatly denied, the judge demanded return of all discovery documents pursuant to the Protective Order. 

"It would've shown even more evidence of Mr. Kerik's allergy to the truth" - Judd Burstein via The "New York Post"
USA V Bernard Kerik Motion denied
USA v Bernard Kerik Motion denied